Sometimes life can be a slow ride. Everyday seems to drag by with no purpose. A lack of motivation and need to accomplish things. Atleast for me personally, I am constantly looking at the future. What things will be like, who will be around and what I believe should be the way it goes. What the “perfect” life should be. I enjoy planning things backwards and forwards. Knowing every detail of everyday. I think God gets a kick out of how we think we know best. 🙂
Its hard to trust that His out come will be better than what i could make. But it is ALWAYS better His way. That lesson is a hard one to learn and I feel like I learn it over and over again. In my “perfect” plan i would graduate from college get married by 22 and kids by 24. I can image every detail of the future, the “perfect” husband,house, children, ect.
One time a couple of years ago I was explaining to an older friend how i imagined my life going for the next 10 years. Almost like playing the game of life but much more detailed. (i like details :)) As I got done explaining my friend looked at me and smiled then burst into laughter. I was confused, I thought we were having a serious moment. Explaining all my thoughts and dreams in life. Then through her laughter she said “Thats cute, but God has bigger plans for you than that. You don’t just plan out your life, thats not the way it works. You might think it does but it doesn’t.”
Discouraged and frustrated I ignored the comments. I was upset that someone else thought they knew more about my life than I do.But over the next few weeks I really started to feel the holy spirit bring her words back to my heart. I started praying over my future instead of planning it 24/7. My worries about my perfect plan started to fade away. That worry turned to excitement and thankfulness about what was to come. I know now that my future won’t be exactly how i want or image it. It will be so much better and bring so much more joy than i could ever plan.
“The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.” Proverbs 16:9